I am having crazy thoughts these day.

I have come to realize these days that I am getting tired of  being resposible for other people's feelings. I should be able to have some feelings of my own, a life that is in some part my own. I am beginning to think that in order to be married you have to have no thoughts that are your own. I am no longer allowed to make any descision on anything, I have not made one decision in almost twenty years that I have not had to consider the ramifications for everyone in my house. I have no life of my own ,not a corner or a slice of my own life. I feel very angry right now!