I am having crazy thoughts these day.

I have come to realize these days that I am getting tired of  being resposible for other people's feelings. I should be able to have some feelings of my own, a life that is in some part my own. I am beginning to think that in order to be married you have to have no thoughts that are your own. I am no longer allowed to make any descision on anything, I have not made one decision in almost twenty years that I have not had to consider the ramifications for everyone in my house. I have no life of my own ,not a corner or a slice of my own life. I feel very angry right now!

I hope my friend knows I am here for her.

I spent a couple of days helping my friend with her kids, and I have to say that I feel for her situation. Her childrens father is the biggest shit head. I would not be in her shoes for her socks. He is a cheater.. I know she knows this. I just try to be there for her. I hope she leaves soon. I would get into the whole situation there, but you would not believe it even if you read it. I just want her to know that I am here for her.

Congrats on your tubal!

Sending out a congrats to my friend on her tubal ligation. It is kinda stupid though she had a c-section with her baby and they could not tie her tubes right then  because it is a Catholic hospital. So she had to wait until she healed from one surgery just so she could have another, and the sad thing is that she had to be put under for this. Frankly, it was funny because all she could say the entire night before was that she was thrilled that she could finally take a nap. I thought it was funny. Now on to another matter. What is up with crazy ass men these days?  Must be something in the Gator aide. My friends and I are all having issues. Economy or the summer heat?

I just got off the phone with two really good friends and I am so happy that I have them in my life. I have to make a tough decision today and I was on the fence. It makes me feel good to know that they accept me as I am, and say, " Hey do what you got to do." Thanks ladies for your faith in me. Sometimes you need that kind of reassurance.

Another follower!

I have another follower! Cool! Well have fun and please chime in at anytime on anything. I am hoping for lots of honest answers. Weather they are good or bad. Thanks!

This day sucked beyond belief!

It started out as an okay day and then all hell broke lose. You must understand that my husband and I are have money troubles all over the place. It is not all his fault, and not all mine either. However, he chose to blow up today. I mean it was bad and I thought I was going to have the cops. I understand that we are in a bad place, but the way he acted is not going to help. He is a good man, and more days than not, I am happy with him. I think we are starting to buckle under the pressure. I am hoping that we can ride out the storm and maybe get back to better days. I just hope we can do this, cause I think we are now exhausted fighting the good fight. 

Is it okay to ask your boyfriend to delete women off his facebook page?

I was talking to a friend of mine today and she was telling me about how many women were on her boyfriend's facebook. She was not happy with some of the posts these women have left on his page. Now I have to add that this man has a track record of being unfaithful. My friend gets the riot act if another man even comments on her page ever, but this guy has girls all over his page commenting constantly. I know that the guilty dog always barks the loudest and so does she, but when does the silent dog bite someone in the  throat?  I want my friend to go for the throat. I am sure that she has her reason for not doing this, but I want pictures when she does. I wonder how much crap can one person take before they push themselves away from the table and say no more for me? I personally have told my husband when I am not comfortable with someone on his page. He is pretty good about the whole thing and either explains the relationship or deletes them off.