I am so upset these days.

This has been one of the most difficult weekends that I have experienced in a long time. I need to go get my daughter this weekend and guess what nothing worked out for my husband and I. We could not rent a car to get her. We can't let her ride a bus, and a plane ticket is outrageous. Or it is for us. We are broke. My daughter is in Alabama and I can't go and get her! It is the most depressing feeling ever. She wants to come home and I have an old car that would not make it down there and because we have a debit Visa card we could not rent a car. I mean we got jerked around the entire weekend. I have a job interview tomorrow and I pray that I get this job. I need it in the worst way. It is three streets away and I can swing those gas prices. I just pray and pray I get this. My family needs this break.

The defense rests.

The defense rested it's case today in the Casey Anthony trial. She did not take the stand and I don't blame her. They would have eaten her ass up. I mean that girl lied constantly. I bet she could not tell the truth about what she had for lunch. Kasey look really scared as the case began to wind down. She has every reason to be scared they are pushing for the death penalty.I can say that I don't think she really killed the child on purpose, but I also don't think she is innocent either. Maybe the child did drown in the swimming pool, or maybe she left it in a hot car. Who knows? All I know is that it will  probably take a day for the verdict to come back on her.  I guess we will have to wait and see. I mean I wish I could have watched the trial with out all the commentary.

On to another note: my friend that had the problem husband ( I know which friend is that?) finally got a job today and since she went back to him, he got to throw his two cents in about it. She called me to tell me that I was he only positive person that she had spoken to the entire day. What an ass for putting her down on her new job. She is stepping away from him and he knows it. Well shame on him for trying to keep that woman under his thumb. My job search has a dead end and a possibility. So we will see. I am taking the steps to get my life back.

So to beat it all!

So you say to yourself, "Hey it can only go up from here." Boy was I wrong. I go to load the dishwasher, and afterwards I try to wash my hands, and no water. I was like what the hell we just paid on our bill. Call the water department and yes they have indeed cut off our water! I plead our case and  am only left more  confused. They said we had not paid our bill since we moved. That was impossible! Well I argued that  our bill was not due until July 11,2011. They maintained their justification of water lock out. I finally asked them if they were not mistakenly crediting the wrong address? In fact they had been doing just that! They were crediting the old address that they claimed still had a past due balance. I said that was impossible because I had turned it off in April and we came in and paid the remaining balance off a couple days later. So as it turns out they never disconnected our old address and the new tenants never said a peep. Too top it off they claimed we never filled out the form to disconnect service. I spent almost the entire day arguing with them! You see I remember filling out all of the forms because the lady behind the desk had a boob hanging out of her shirt with a horrible tatoo on it, and my husband and I could not help but notice it. It was like a car accident you don't want to look, but you can't help it. Turns out she was bad boob, bad tatoo lady, and insisted that we had no filled out the form. My husband had to leave work early (money we needed) and go down there. Needless to say no apology. Don't ya just love the water department!

My Life is pathetic right now.

I went  job hunting today and I have to say that there is something wrong with your life when just enjoy driving along filling out applications. None of these job apps lead to pay dirt, but it was nice to be out of the house. I just sit and wonder where did my life go. We are so far in hole that I do not ever think we will see light. I have begged my husband to get a second job with no results. We don't have enough groceries to last until his payday, and besides that we have to go get our daughter when he gets paid. I mean where is the life we had. We had a decent car, a nice house, and a gym membership. Now we have lost our house, car, and the Y membership. I mean we can't even pay our bills, and feed our kids. I want to go back to school, but we can't afford it. I just want a job now! My life is pathetic right now. I have been saying for three years now that things will get better, but I am begining to think that it will never. I guess I will just keep praying. God let me at least have gas money to look for a job this week. I'll take two jobs please...

I have to stop watching this trial.

I am as poor as a church mouse, and bored to tears. So I have turned to court tv. I have been following the Casey Anthony trial. I know that girl is going to be convicted of something, but I can't help feeling sorry for her because her trial lawyer stinks. I mean there is not one thing in this trial he has not screwed up. I mean it is twenty objections and two side bars just to get anything into evidence. I mean he seems out of place in a courtroom and the prosecutors will propably have him convicted of a crime by the time this whole thing is said and done. I mean he is defending the biggest liar I have ever witnessed, and trust me I have met some big ass liars in my time. I mean this girl could not tell the truth about what she had for lunch. I would'nt put her on the stand. She would get ate for lunch up there. All the lies she has told and her poor parents. Those poor people have lost their beautiful grandchild and know their lying daughter will probably get the chair. I mean why would anyone kill a child that they could have left with her grandparents any day of the week and just walked away. They loved that little girl and she could have dissapeared into the mist. The whole thing makes no sense. I wonder if I am the only one watching this circus and shaking thier heads.

Congrats to my friend for leaving aan abusive husband.

My friend has left her abusive husband, and all I can say is that it is about time! I mean she has really tried to stand by this man for years now and he has done nothing but drink to much, be verbally abusive to her, and I suspect he has hit her a few times too. I have really wondered why she stayed for so long with him, I suspect it was because she thought the kids would get upset. I have no clue what her reasons were. I am just glad that she is getting out of there. Maybe this husband of hers will see the errors of his ways and try to fix this, but he is stubborn person. They have two children and it would be nice to see them happy, but I don't see him being capable of change. I still think there is something in the Gator Aide this summer. These men must be drinking from the same squeeze bottle. Well this jackass has threaten to have her dog put down, take her children, and has accused her of having an internet affair. I mean I kinda hoped she was having an affair, but sadly enough she said it was not true:( I think she deserves some kind of love and romance after the last years she has had with him, but it was not true. I think this man is capable of love and kindness and I hope he soon starts showing it.

Make a decision and live with it.

In response to my friend: Make sure you are prepared to live with your decisions. I mean sometimes you get so used to looking past things that you to turn around you have no clue where YOU are. I wanted to take control over my own life and still find myself compromising. I say don't make the same mistakes I have made, and overlooked so long that you can't find one glimpse of yourself. Start standing up now or you will find yourself stooped over always searching the ground.